I hate that I can’t answer asks privately on this app stupid tumblr.

You know what if we were in prison, you guys would be like my bitches.

I keep telling myself that I’m not chasing after him anymore, that I’m done with this thing I do where I always do all of the work in a relationship. I wait, I go, I run, I jump and I always lose in the end.

I tell myself, this is it. No more, I deserve better.

But then he comes to me and says one sweet thing….

and I’m back at square one.

I’m back at the beginning where I saw this remarkable guy and started to fall for him.

I’m back reliving those wonderful memories and I don’t want to let go.

but that’s all they are now, memories.